Do you remember participating in sports tournaments during your childhood? Let’s say, a tennis tournament, in my case. Or do you remember participating in a drawing or poetry contest, or did you ever audition for a musical? If I participated in any competition, my parents would tell me: ‘Remember, it doesn’t matter if you win as long as you try There’s more for you to read!
When people ask me about my favourite holiday, my answer is Sinterklaas (St. Nicholas), even though I haven’t celebrated it in 10 years. Holidays like Christmas don’t bring me as much excitement as it does for other people. But if there’s one thing I’d like children to experience it’s Sinterklaas, because it was one of the best things in my childhood. There’s more for you to read!
On 11 May 2009, I published a novella named ‘Een Moeilijke Kamp Ervaring,’ which directly translates to ‘A difficult camping experience’. I was 13 at the time and felt the utmost compulsion to write this story down as quickly as I could. I believe it only took me a few weeks to write and finish it, and once I did, There’s more for you to read!
For years I struggled with the idea of going out. Entering a place where your shirt sticks to your back and where dozens of people are tipsy or drunk, dancing and shouting over the loud music has never been my idea of fun and certainly not one of comfort. Yet, this seemed to be the social thing people do once There’s more for you to read!
Birthdays are supposed to be good days; days that you look forward to and wish to celebrate. I liked my birthday a lot when I was a child. Everyone likes receiving presents, eating cake and celebrating with friends, right? I do too, or I used to, at the very least. However, my birthday has turned into a day of expectations. Birthdays There’s more for you to read!
It is incredibly hard to recognise one’s own feelings and it is even harder to convey such feelings in words. Telling someone else that you’re not okay is difficult because admitting that you’re not okay feels like admitting that you’re weak, and it also feels as if you’re burdening the other person with a problem that isn’t theirs. However, it There’s more for you to read!
How do you come out? It’s kind of weird that we have to come out when straight people don’t. As I’ve mentioned before, I don’t particularly like standing up in front of a group of people and telling them whatever it is that I have to say. Well, it’s much more awkward when you have to announce something personal, even There’s more for you to read!
If you know me or have followed me for a while you probably know that I struggle to sleep, a lot. (Blog post: sleepless nights) Because I struggle so much to sleep, I’ve tried out a lot of different methods to help me sleep. Some worked for a while and then stopped working and I’m grateful for the times that they There’s more for you to read!
I always expected my parents to divorce at some point. I didn’t know when, and I thought it had been long overdue, but I was pretty certain it would happen. Naturally, then, when it happened, it was quite unexpected. It was in a year when I thought they were fighting the least. They seemed to have a few common interests There’s more for you to read!
In September 2015, I moved into university accommodation, together with 14 other flatmates. Like everyone else, I decorated my room and tried to make it feel like home. Next to displaying a dozen books and some postcards from my friends, I’d put up a rainbow ribbon and drawing of me and my friend at a gay pride, which really made There’s more for you to read!
Before I moved to Wales, I checked whether I needed to have an insurance in the UK. I found out that the UK runs the NHS, a free healthcare system. My mum worried because she had heard (on the news) that the NHS had some issues, but I waved her worries away. Surely, it couldn’t be that bad and I There’s more for you to read!
I feel like I am broken. Your words and actions have made me feel like I’m broken. Like I’m a failed product that couldn’t be repaired. Like I’m weird and mad and nothing will ever change that. You have shown me that it’s not okay when I’m not okay. It’s not okay when I’m depressed and feeling suicidal and need There’s more for you to read!
Can I hold a girl’s hand in public? Shortly after coming out, one of the main things I worried about was whether or not I could have a girlfriend, and whether or not people could know if we were a couple, and whether or not I could show that kind of affection in public. It seems like such a small thing but I wasn’t sure if I could hold another girl’s hand in public. Would people look? Would people comment on it or call us names? Would I draw attention to myself? Would people start looking at me differently? There’s more for you to read!
Three years ago, I was about to set off to University with a tiny car that had been packed to the brim (literally). I really wanted to be prepared and bring absolutely everything that I thought was necessary and so I did (see my 3-year-old blog post Packing for University). Little did I know I didn’t need to bring everything, haha, and There’s more for you to read!