Accepting my Dutch past

Over the last two years, I only visited the Netherlands for a total of two weeks. I left the country no longer feeling at home and when I came back to visit for a short period of time everything felt peculiar. I wrote about it in a blog post then. I felt like an outsider who knew the insider’s secrets There’s more for you to read!

Writing and Mental Health

On the 16th of March, Gwyneth Lewis (a Welsh poet) gave a talk on Writing on Mental Health at my university. I was interested because I’m a writer and I have struggled with depression myself. I wanted to know more about the relation between writing and mental health and one of the first points that Gwyneth gave immediately spoke to There’s more for you to read!

I lost ‘that one person’

I lost ‘that one person’. It’s a post I wrote that I am unable to read back. We struggled with the distance but we struggled more with other things. They don’t matter now. I broke up with her and I broke her heart. It must change something permanently. No matter what, she will never be able to see me the There’s more for you to read!

My struggle at University

When I came to university I was afraid that I would not be able to live up to the standards of academic work. Like most, I was also afraid that I might not make any friends and at the same time, I had the slight fear of having chosen a course that I wouldn’t like after all. Then once I There’s more for you to read!

Stress

“I recognise it,” my mum said to me today. “There are always a thousand things to do and I’m constantly stressed,” I told her, not at all in a coherent way, and that I had to do this and this and this and this and this, and that basically, I was feeling kind of stressed. “You are about to move abroad, There’s more for you to read!

Facing rejection

As many A-level related articles are appearing on my Facebook timeline, I can’t help but feel incredibly relieved for not being a part of it. It is not unknown that A-levels are putting a great amount of pressure on students in the UK. The results determine whether a student can enrol in his or her desired course and university. When There’s more for you to read!

I wish you could be honest with me

“I hope you find a way to be yourself someday, in weakness or in strength, change can be amazing.” February 2008 – I fled upstairs as she received the call. She would know what I had done. I hurt her and had broken her trust. As I was trying to find the courage to face her, I started to cry. When I There’s more for you to read!

Breathe, Malou

I can describe us with an endless list of songs. I can see her in everything she has ever talked about. She used to be my first thought in the morning and my last thought when I went to bed. She didn’t even leave me in my dreams. She was always there, with me, in my head, but hasn’t been There’s more for you to read!

‘Can I still cancel this meeting?’

Yesterday morning I awoke in pure distress. For the record: I had gone to sleep at 3 am after having 3 nights in a row with only 6 hours of sleep. (I think I need about 8 each night). Having to wake up at 8 am yesterday only added to my sleep deprivation, and fear. This, however, was not the There’s more for you to read!