I know my thoughts are irrational. I know you like me and enjoy being my friend. But sometimes I really don’t know and I panic. I become afraid that I’m the most disgusting thing in the world in your eyes. You might dislike the way I sometimes turn away when our eyes meet. Or the way I never stand up There’s more for you to read!
“I recognise it,” my mum said to me today. “There are always a thousand things to do and I’m constantly stressed,” I told her, not at all in a coherent way, and that I had to do this and this and this and this and this, and that basically, I was feeling kind of stressed. “You are about to move abroad, There’s more for you to read!
As many A-level related articles are appearing on my Facebook timeline, I can’t help but feel incredibly relieved for not being a part of it. It is not unknown that A-levels are putting a great amount of pressure on students in the UK. The results determine whether a student can enrol in his or her desired course and university. When There’s more for you to read!
I never started a blog for the reason many others have. Why would anyone be interested in what I’m writing? I’m only writing about myself (I suppose that is what you do on a personal blog) but on some days I want nothing more than for myself to disappear. I don’t want to stand in anyone’s way so why would I There’s more for you to read!
“I hope you find a way to be yourself someday, in weakness or in strength, change can be amazing.” February 2008 – I fled upstairs as she received the call. She would know what I had done. I hurt her and had broken her trust. As I was trying to find the courage to face her, I started to cry. When I There’s more for you to read!
My dad and I sat down on the side of my bed. He told me it would be okay; it would be okay- awesome in fact- if I would end up having a goth phase in my life- or, anything else, really. I was 8 then and I always knew that if I wouldn’t be straight my parents wouldn’t have There’s more for you to read!
Today we had football practise but it wasn’t as fun as it usually is. At the start of the season, we decided to make a little report of each match that we played. Everyone did this in the first half of the season, but no one has made one for a few weeks now because ‘we’ no longer want to. There’s more for you to read!
I can describe us with an endless list of songs. I can see her in everything she has ever talked about. She used to be my first thought in the morning and my last thought when I went to bed. She didn’t even leave me in my dreams. She was always there, with me, in my head, but hasn’t been There’s more for you to read!
Yesterday morning I awoke in pure distress. For the record: I had gone to sleep at 3 am after having 3 nights in a row with only 6 hours of sleep. (I think I need about 8 each night). Having to wake up at 8 am yesterday only added to my sleep deprivation, and fear. This, however, was not the There’s more for you to read!
Decisions, decisions… It is very hard for me to make decisions. If you are an over-thinker like I am, it may seem impossible to make any. The problem is that there is no definite ‘right’ or ‘wrong’. The world isn’t black and white and although that makes life a lot more exciting, it also makes it more difficult. As for There’s more for you to read!